re: Misremembered
When I listen to The Smiths I am eighteen
and coming off a breakup. I am coming back
to tell my eighteen-year-old self not to spend
the next several years constructing a shelf
to build the body below. Sad songs sound
sappy in retrospect. Catharsis is not the same
as crying in a basement. Nowhere in a manual
will the instructions read bleed, repeat; bleed,
repeat. I’ve never cut myself intentionally. The
tears you fake are equal to the tears you make.
re: The Doom Generation
Gregg Araki spearheaded New Queer Cinema,
films revealed through lust and lust and lust
and a planet smashed through sequence—how
good movies can evoke tears, but great movies
can invoke fears. When I neglect protection I
google each possible disease that could now
belong to me. Some say it’s not the number
of years in your life, but the number of beers
in your years. A chorus. A verse a verse a verse.