The Seven of Swords by Jessa Crispin

Reading the Tarot by Jessa Crispin

The situation has become untenable. Whatever it was that brought you here, whatever came before, whatever memories you might have of when things worked and when this life was good, those feelings of belonging and safety, that has all faded into the past. Now only one thought remains in your head, and it clangs and bangs: out out out. There...
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The 9 of Cups by Jessa Crispin

Reading the Tarot by Jessa Crispin

“No one can love you until you learn to love yourself.” “Utter horseshit.” Emma and I were comparing notes, of terrible things said to us by terrible therapists, but this one was a howler. “She must have read it off of a bumper sticker before she came into the office that day.” “The only people I know who love...
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The Six of Coins by Jessa Crispin

Reading the Tarot by Jessa Crispin

“The price of anything is the amount of life you exchange for it.” – Henry David Thoreau I had already made up my mind: I did not like Athens. I had never been to Athens, but I was pretty sure that this was correct. My opinion was based on news reports, of course. Tales of corruption and despair, and...
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The Eight of Swords by Jessa Crispin

Reading the Tarot by Jessa Crispin

There were these dogs that were put into harnesses. What looked like an escape route was placed in front of them. The scientists then delivered electric shocks. The dogs would struggle to escape but the harness kept them in place, and kept them tied to the thing that was causing the pain. This went on for a very long time....
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The Three of Wands by Jessa Crispin

Reading the Tarot by Jessa Crispin

“Of the gladdest moments in human life, methinks, is the departure upon a distant journey into unknown lands.” – Sir Richard Francis Burton * Tomorrow a taxi picks me up at 6am. It takes me to a train, which takes me to Paris. From there, I take the subway to the airport and fly to Athens. I will then take...
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The Devil by Jessa Crispin

Reading the Tarot by Jessa Crispin

The Devil When Psyche was abandoned by her lover Eros, she tried throwing herself in the river, but the river kept spitting her back out. “Don’t you pollute our lovely waters with your bloated corpse, little girl.” Wild with grief and emitting the kind of despair that registers on seismographs two continents away, she was heard by the god Pan,...
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The Four of Coins by Jessa Crispin

Reading the Tarot by Jessa Crispin

I was staying in a small cube on the outskirts of Belgrade. The outer wall was baldly exposed to the Serbian August sun, and the room quickly turned oven-like in the morning. It had only a few small windows that did not open far, and there was no way to create a breeze. By 6am it was too hot to...
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Reading the Tarot by Jessa Crispin

Reading the Tarot by Jessa Crispin

There is a forest of aspen trees in Utah that, it was discovered, is all one singular, massive organism. Just one source plant, that kept shooting up variations of itself, all genetically linked, all sharing the same root system. My question is: did the tree begin reproducing itself in a barren landscape to keep itself company? Or did its...
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